My fake lucid dream and the Red Mage Empire
Stable lucid dream; felt unusually fake; the clock hands were moving!; rewatching my life?
© Adûnâi (2025-05-06)
https://old.reddit.com/r/LucidDreaming/comments/1kgbu0o/stable_lucid_dream_felt_unusually_fake_the_clock/
https://old.reddit.com/r/AstralProjection/comments/1kgbvuf/stable_lucid_dream_felt_unusually_fake_the_clock/
My today's lucid dream has been arguably unique in my history. How did I achieve it? Was sleepy, 4 hours after waking up lay down in bed listening to podcasts, an hour later went to sleep, slept for 2 hours.
Lucid dream: I grew lucid feeling "fake" - and that is unusual for me, LD for me is about feeling in the moment, crisp colours... whereas this was muffled, and thus ticked me off? I was in my own usual room - which is, again, rather unusual, I literally never dream about my room.
1, I focused on the tip of my finger - again, weird, I never do that, I have trouble visualising my body those few times I LDed. Still felt fake.
2, Then I went to the bathroom and reached for the mechanical clock that used to be there (time understanding in my dreams in wonky) - at first it felt like the clock hand moved back once, but then it started moving normally! Yes, I looked at a clock in a lucid dream, maybe for the first time ever? And this is what it was. Again, the dream felt really stable but "muffled".
3, I remembered a thing about my pseudo-pagan shrine, closed my eyes, and told myself "I wish never to forget this dream". And then, to be sure, I repeated without the negation, "I wish always to remember this dream". Probably in English, I don't use my native language in dreams.
4, The next stage I remember is my mom was leaving my apartment as she usually does and I was holding the door and talking about the feeling of fakeness, I also asked her about the date, and she said Friday, April 25. Which, to be fair, is the last day before my online friend's alleged death last April, so maybe that's related? Curious how I remembered it. And a 2 week delay (I still don't feel like it's May).
2,1, Now this is another section completely - I was transported to my past, my old house. Not sure if I retained the memory of the previous segments, but I did retain some semblance of lucidity - feeling as if not in control of my body? Again, rather unusual for my lucid dreaming where I get euphoric and immediately try to feel things out before I wake up. So what did I do? Unveil the curtains, appreciate the sunlight, having the feeling of being in the past, even wondering if the passer-by people had already died, and when some appeared to mock my clothing, I wondered if I would have missed it in reality by virtue of being a child, but now I should be offended, but that's exactly what this dream was demanding of me, so I chose not to.
(Yes, I had an impression of being dead and rewatching and "replaying" my life - although I wasn't thinking of my death at all in the dream, and either way, I never felt fear, so that remained common as in all my other dreams, I never have nightmares...)
2,2, Another point was watching a neighbour's house being renovated, and thinking that in reality I stopped seeing it due to the overgrowth of a tree (I don't remember if that's true in reality). Then I was in a car taking a turn around the house (or maybe rationalising the feeling of a turn?), and then immediately woke up by opening my eyes (no area of darkness or anything, like sometimes it may happen).
A curious little journey. I was not afraid, not panicking, but apparently the stableness of the dream fascinated me? I wonder to what extent it was my "dream persona", and to what extent I was lucid. There are things clearly indicative of lucidity - finger meditation, clock checking, shrine recall, date remembrance. But to what extent was it my proper mind?
And of course, the curious case of the muffled senses - that is the opposite of how I ever get lucid. The times I remember were either because the scenery got repetitive and reminded me I'm in a dream, or focusing my attention on something (but the finger episode was clearly the consequence here, not the cause). But here, it was the case of feeling differently than awake, when I'm bombarded by easily-distinguished sounds and other sense data...
P.S. No, I'm not sad irl, all my friends are online, so if anyone dies, it's just a name on the screen going whoosh.
Projected participants in the Moscow victory parade (2025 CE)
© Adûnâi (2025-05-06)
https://old.reddit.com/r/MapPorn/comments/1kgbyp4/projected_participants_in_the_moscow_victory/
https://old.reddit.com/r/Maps/comments/1kgc0ft/projected_participants_in_the_moscow_victory/
P.S. May 11 - 01-00-06:00, I’ve randomly had a dream about chess! I even remember the positioning of the figures, at least in the area around the Black King! That’s considering I only ever played chess twice in my life - around 10 with my mom, and in Oct 2023 online. Rather impressive.
5b2/1K1b4/p7/1k4p1/2p2r2/1N2Q3/5PPP/1r6 b KQkq - 0 1
P.S. May 13 - after a fairly alright sleep from 19:00-01:30, I had a memory of a dream where I… meditated? So maybe this is the first time I tried stopping the inner monologue in a dream! Or at least it felt so.
The dream: lying in my bed in my old home, and texting with what felt like a “shard“ of a girl, one of the two, about literature, her dying, me _focusing_ on that, then a false awakening in the same room (in the morning), bright sunny colours (green curtains? Now that’s a legit memory, huh), and retelling that story to my mom, in my own words - “her every post was a delight“ (I do have such emotions IRL, like regarding my dead friend or Chechar’s latest posts on his travails in Middle Europe).
https://westsdarkesthour.com/2025/05/12/zero-10/ (funny wrong map)