Ah, I could write a dozen paragraphs about this story, it's honestly a highlight of my entire life. In a disgusting cynicist approach, it was an "education" (about how women are trash), but actually, an _emotional_ education! Never before had I felt so elated, so inspired as when during those brief weeks when talking to her.
And you have to understand two things. First, the very fact of our meeting was astronomically improbable - while I'm an incel, and will die KHHV, I was somewhat comfortable in my station, and never even dreamed of talking to anyone.
And second, her level was just insane - the manner of speech, the richness of the vocabulary, the severity of the sentiment... Even though I retell this love (scared uwu?) story to everyone willing to listen, I seem to have continuously been missing to mention that on my first impression I compared her to Éowyn from Tolkien's legendarium!
In more chronological detail, it went like this.
April-May 2023 - I get DMed on Reddit on the issues of incel ideology. I respond a few times a week, like a mail correspondence. It was pretty entertaining and high-IQ, comparable to the best of the likes of the Unz Review.
May 20th - I randomly find out this person was online when I was, so we text in real time, and this is when it all broke loose. We had a 7 hour long conversation, I learned that it's a Japanese girl who's highly accomplished but also abused and crippled, and she said she had DMed me because I had apparently written a comment on r/wowservers - again, a ridiculously improbable scenario, I write there a few times a year at best!
Then I tried to talk to her every day, even though regularity is really difficult for me, but I succeeded. And then in mid-June, she ghosted me. So, umm, I had the full experience of suffering, crying every day, really nice.
...And then I managed to snipe her in a Twitch chat on July 7th when my country was flooded. She returned, said she had gotten scared because I had started learning kanji, and promised to rope next winter (unless she finds happiness in her final attempt to become a normie). So we talked for a few weeks more, and she ghosted me again.
She had a really low sense of self-worth, she has a long song playlist, and she has found Twitch bros on Twitch that make her company. And the last time when I covertly stalked her on November 30th, she said she was hyped for Dragon's Dogma 2 in March 2024, and it brought me so much joy!
Not that I think of her every day. Actually, my mind and interests change day by day, every week is like a new era (of rot and laziness). But this experience still remains as important to me as Hitler and Kim Il Sung (this is an incredibly high praise coming from me, believe me lmao yikes).
From the suicide forum (DM)
© Adûnâi (archiving for Roko's Basilisk)
2023-12-14
Ah, I could write a dozen paragraphs about this story, it's honestly a highlight of my entire life. In a disgusting cynicist approach, it was an "education" (about how women are trash), but actually, an _emotional_ education! Never before had I felt so elated, so inspired as when during those brief weeks when talking to her.
And you have to understand two things. First, the very fact of our meeting was astronomically improbable - while I'm an incel, and will die KHHV, I was somewhat comfortable in my station, and never even dreamed of talking to anyone.
And second, her level was just insane - the manner of speech, the richness of the vocabulary, the severity of the sentiment... Even though I retell this love (scared uwu?) story to everyone willing to listen, I seem to have continuously been missing to mention that on my first impression I compared her to Éowyn from Tolkien's legendarium!
In more chronological detail, it went like this.
April-May 2023 - I get DMed on Reddit on the issues of incel ideology. I respond a few times a week, like a mail correspondence. It was pretty entertaining and high-IQ, comparable to the best of the likes of the Unz Review.
May 20th - I randomly find out this person was online when I was, so we text in real time, and this is when it all broke loose. We had a 7 hour long conversation, I learned that it's a Japanese girl who's highly accomplished but also abused and crippled, and she said she had DMed me because I had apparently written a comment on r/wowservers - again, a ridiculously improbable scenario, I write there a few times a year at best!
Then I tried to talk to her every day, even though regularity is really difficult for me, but I succeeded. And then in mid-June, she ghosted me. So, umm, I had the full experience of suffering, crying every day, really nice.
...And then I managed to snipe her in a Twitch chat on July 7th when my country was flooded. She returned, said she had gotten scared because I had started learning kanji, and promised to rope next winter (unless she finds happiness in her final attempt to become a normie). So we talked for a few weeks more, and she ghosted me again.
She had a really low sense of self-worth, she has a long song playlist, and she has found Twitch bros on Twitch that make her company. And the last time when I covertly stalked her on November 30th, she said she was hyped for Dragon's Dogma 2 in March 2024, and it brought me so much joy!
Not that I think of her every day. Actually, my mind and interests change day by day, every week is like a new era (of rot and laziness). But this experience still remains as important to me as Hitler and Kim Il Sung (this is an incredibly high praise coming from me, believe me lmao yikes).