Part I. The story is that in April 2023, I got messaged on Reddit by a person who turned out to be an incredibly intelligent and accomplished, yet abused and sorrowful, Japanese girl.
this is weird and beautiful and romantic.......... it is very tragic how easily digital connections can be lost and painful to not be able to know for certain why people disappear like that
Thank you <3 Living the Baudrillard dream! Do you happen to know any Reddit forums to post this mystery to? I haven't mentioned any names, so I feel it would be fine? And I can still wait for a few weeks anyway, it's not like there's any haste. I have already gotten this update which I would never expect to look like this. What an enigma.
My emotions are in fact relief? Especially if she never existed at all. Of course, it's more complicated if a part of her story was true, and so part of her suffering is indeed genuine : ( (this may sound like I'd wish her dead, but of course, I wished for her will to be manifest, one way or another - that is why I did not contact any of her friends about her before a few weeks after her disappearance (and I got no response to my brief message, "Has she come back")).
...In other news, my highly-IQ, well-read, pussy-slaying chad of a friend who's been super kind to me for two months might have roped today : ( He watched so many vintage Japanese films, and read Heidegger. He was like Léon Degrelle or Gandalf : (
He liked Scattered Clouds (1967) and Monster (2004).
> It is hard indeed to believe that one of so great wisdom, and of power - for many wonderful things he did among us - could perish, and so much lore be taken from the world.
> The spiritual decline of the earth has progressed so far that peoples are in danger of losing their last spiritual strength, the strength that makes it possible even to see the decline [which is meant in relation to the fate of “Being”] and to appraise it as such. This simple observation has nothing to do with cultural pessimism—nor with any optimism either, of course; for the darkening of the world, the flight of the gods, the destruction of the earth, the reduction of human beings to a mass, the hatred and mistrust of everything creative and free have already reached such proportions throughout the whole earth that such childish categories as pessimism and optimism have long become laughable.
18-19 deg Aquarius - A boat upon the sea which a submerged man is clinging for support.
This symbol is related to one in whose life some great catastrophe will occur at a time when providentially there will be a friend at hand to rescue him from his danger. It indicates that a deficiency of tact and skill is liable to reader him subject to adversity of fortune, and he will suffer financial disaster and even peril of death. But there will be raised up to him a friend capable of sustaining him in his extremity, and he will not therefore sink into the depths. This will be in response to his great faith. The nature, although daring, is lacking in tact and strength. All his troubles will arise from failing to admit his own incompetence. He will travel afar. It is a degree of
INSECURITY
2. Adriano Carelli in "The 360 Degrees of the Zodiac" 2004
18-19 deg Aquarius - Symbol: A head severed from its bust is held high by someone and still goes on talking.
The native will go far. A man of many parts, he may, however, dangerously skirt light-headedness
or anateurishness. He is not independent, but wields a measure of authority that may make him
feared. He will love his lord as faithfully as did Pilades love Orestes, or as Kurnewald loved
Tristram.
All these features may be marked enough, but they do not reveal the key of his personality, lying in
a formidable either psychic or bodily strength, such as to enable him to survive catastrophes apt to
shatter lesser men. Vulgarly he would be thought to possess nine lives, as is said of cats. Just in the
nick of time, when everything seems lost and any further hope of rescue would sound absurd, a
providential intervention allows him to survive. Usually this will come as a deserved prize for the
faithfulness mentioned above.
Will it be faith in one’s lord or in the Lord? Here the rest of the horoscope should supply the
answer. At the limit, the symbolic image recalls the miracle of St. Denis, who, after being beheaded,
rose and picked up his head again. At the opposite limit, the native would be an executor of
Justice’s dire retribution, and would show the populace the culprit’s severed head.
...UPDATE on the situation - that's the response I have received.
> Are you the "psycho stalker"? youre fucking nutso dude get some help, talking shit about someones lost loved one is fucked up bro
> get your schizo shit checked
How cryptic.
(It goes without saying is that the only meaningful part is "someones lost loved one". All I did was contact her old friends, divulging this account name to a single one. The worst case scenario is her friends learn she didn't die - kind of awkward, but a sort of a closure nonetheless.)
It's a ridiculously-high IQ check for me, but this could still be her, merely trying to shoo me away, in a somewhat more explicit manner than in June/July 2023.
Needless to say, I'm not going to contact "her" in a like manner again, I have only done this much due to this new unexpected info in Jan 2025, and because there are people who like and remember her.
this is weird and beautiful and romantic.......... it is very tragic how easily digital connections can be lost and painful to not be able to know for certain why people disappear like that
intriguing, maybe things will be clearer one day, digital companionship is so complex and unpredictable.
Thank you <3 Living the Baudrillard dream! Do you happen to know any Reddit forums to post this mystery to? I haven't mentioned any names, so I feel it would be fine? And I can still wait for a few weeks anyway, it's not like there's any haste. I have already gotten this update which I would never expect to look like this. What an enigma.
My emotions are in fact relief? Especially if she never existed at all. Of course, it's more complicated if a part of her story was true, and so part of her suffering is indeed genuine : ( (this may sound like I'd wish her dead, but of course, I wished for her will to be manifest, one way or another - that is why I did not contact any of her friends about her before a few weeks after her disappearance (and I got no response to my brief message, "Has she come back")).
...In other news, my highly-IQ, well-read, pussy-slaying chad of a friend who's been super kind to me for two months might have roped today : ( He watched so many vintage Japanese films, and read Heidegger. He was like Léon Degrelle or Gandalf : (
He liked Scattered Clouds (1967) and Monster (2004).
> It is hard indeed to believe that one of so great wisdom, and of power - for many wonderful things he did among us - could perish, and so much lore be taken from the world.
© JRR Tolkien
> The spiritual decline of the earth has progressed so far that peoples are in danger of losing their last spiritual strength, the strength that makes it possible even to see the decline [which is meant in relation to the fate of “Being”] and to appraise it as such. This simple observation has nothing to do with cultural pessimism—nor with any optimism either, of course; for the darkening of the world, the flight of the gods, the destruction of the earth, the reduction of human beings to a mass, the hatred and mistrust of everything creative and free have already reached such proportions throughout the whole earth that such childish categories as pessimism and optimism have long become laughable.
© Heidegger
> What a shame Germany didnt win, imagine Heidegger doing philosophy in a 60s Reich instead of a worthless democracy
Two types of threads on this website (poem)
© StrugglingSienna
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/two-types-of-threads-on-this-website-poem.200976/
Type A:
Long time lurker, first time poster here.
Things have gone awry in a tremendous way:
The love of my life for sixty-seven years left me last May.
My son and daughter have both passed away.
I don't think my dog loves me anymore, and my cat never did.
That covers the family, so onto me,
I'm fat, and ugly, and unlikeable, there's no saving this.
Oh, and I have cancer, an osteosarcoma, and type II diabetes.
I haven't had a job in sixty-seven years, nor any education.
CTB today is my temptation,
I've only got one chance.
Because I have to see my parole officer and get drug tested tomorrow,
after a 7 week meth bender.
Also, I am transgender.
So, any shotgun suggestions?
Type B:
hi sasuuuu!!!! i just turned 18!
my life has been ruined so let me explain.
my gf of one week has left me for Chad,
and i got a b in one class so i'm pretty sad.
the worst part about it all? my dick!
only 6.5 inches (flaccid).
so, um, anyways, i have here with me
some nyquil, some tylenol, some benadryl
so can someone please make my week
and tell me which of these will provide
the quick, painless death that i seek?
I should have checked the horoscope. Amusingly fitting, even to the mention of 9 lives.
https://neofeudalreview.substack.com/p/astrology-science-or-psuedoscience
https://ia903404.us.archive.org/32/items/new-360-symbolic-degrees/NEW%20360%20symbolic%20degrees.pdf
1. La Volasfera by Sepharia
18-19 deg Aquarius - A boat upon the sea which a submerged man is clinging for support.
This symbol is related to one in whose life some great catastrophe will occur at a time when providentially there will be a friend at hand to rescue him from his danger. It indicates that a deficiency of tact and skill is liable to reader him subject to adversity of fortune, and he will suffer financial disaster and even peril of death. But there will be raised up to him a friend capable of sustaining him in his extremity, and he will not therefore sink into the depths. This will be in response to his great faith. The nature, although daring, is lacking in tact and strength. All his troubles will arise from failing to admit his own incompetence. He will travel afar. It is a degree of
INSECURITY
2. Adriano Carelli in "The 360 Degrees of the Zodiac" 2004
18-19 deg Aquarius - Symbol: A head severed from its bust is held high by someone and still goes on talking.
The native will go far. A man of many parts, he may, however, dangerously skirt light-headedness
or anateurishness. He is not independent, but wields a measure of authority that may make him
feared. He will love his lord as faithfully as did Pilades love Orestes, or as Kurnewald loved
Tristram.
All these features may be marked enough, but they do not reveal the key of his personality, lying in
a formidable either psychic or bodily strength, such as to enable him to survive catastrophes apt to
shatter lesser men. Vulgarly he would be thought to possess nine lives, as is said of cats. Just in the
nick of time, when everything seems lost and any further hope of rescue would sound absurd, a
providential intervention allows him to survive. Usually this will come as a deserved prize for the
faithfulness mentioned above.
Will it be faith in one’s lord or in the Lord? Here the rest of the horoscope should supply the
answer. At the limit, the symbolic image recalls the miracle of St. Denis, who, after being beheaded,
rose and picked up his head again. At the opposite limit, the native would be an executor of
Justice’s dire retribution, and would show the populace the culprit’s severed head.
...UPDATE on the situation - that's the response I have received.
> Are you the "psycho stalker"? youre fucking nutso dude get some help, talking shit about someones lost loved one is fucked up bro
> get your schizo shit checked
How cryptic.
(It goes without saying is that the only meaningful part is "someones lost loved one". All I did was contact her old friends, divulging this account name to a single one. The worst case scenario is her friends learn she didn't die - kind of awkward, but a sort of a closure nonetheless.)
It's a ridiculously-high IQ check for me, but this could still be her, merely trying to shoo me away, in a somewhat more explicit manner than in June/July 2023.
Needless to say, I'm not going to contact "her" in a like manner again, I have only done this much due to this new unexpected info in Jan 2025, and because there are people who like and remember her.
!remindme decade